I leave this blog to speak my mind and to leak what I feel needs to be known.  Being involved in ministry for a short, but good amount of time, I can say that I have dug as deep as I can dig with this "walk."  My understanding has lead me to a couple conclusions.  Those conclusions help me understand life a little bit better.  Some people have been satisfied to walk a walk that feels seperated from their creator.  I mean, so many claim to have this "relationship" yet they pray as if they never knew "him" or never expect something in return.  Some of the most "spiritual" people in my life, in one way shape or form, have been the most busted, and broke people I know.  I've made a dedication, not only to myself, but to those around me.  I know conciously that many look at what I do or perceive how I speak and wait for a reason to shoot what I say down.  But I also know that there are some that really respect my search for the truth.  I'm dedicated to it.  So dedicated that it has led me to fall on my face about 3 or 4 seperate times (in huge ways) in my life.  It has caused me be mean, extremely controlling and insecure.  It has caused people around me pain, and at what cost?  Truth.  At my present state of mind and with the experiences that I have been through.  I have come to an understanding on who God is.  We claim to have this relationship with him, yet we constantly play the "humble" role and literally degrade our own lives.  We, being created in his image and likeness, basically call his creation "horrible" or "corrupt."  That would be the equivalent of me being a rapper, and you saying you respect my work, but then calling every part of it "wack" or "garbage."  It's a contradiction.  So as I continue to learn more about life and other things, like science.  I basically understand that God is not who we think he is.  We have done a great job at imagining.  Trust me, we have.  But I believe its time that we starting seeing the potential that is within us, instead of sitting there having a pity party all day.  You fail to see your own potential and power, because you want to be humble?  You fail to accept he that is within you.  Your mind has more POWER than you know.  So after multiple arguments and debates about this doctrine and that, I've decided to hang up the gloves.  I'm done imagining, I'm done putting up this mask.  Some of you think your free, but your really not.  Your in bondage to the MAN over you.  Your in bondage to a horrible self image because you take peices of the bible and fail to see that not everything in it is a statement of truth.  In the future, I will share more, but right now, I have a greater peace of mind than ever before.  I now truly understand what it means when the bible says, where the "spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom".... There is a truth out there, and yes, its true that we live in a physical realm that is not so real after all.  But God is closer to you than you believe.  He is within you.  And NO ONE has the right to manipulate, dictate, or pursuade, YOUR MIND.

 I will not compromise this any longer.

God bless