In loving memory Herbert J. Ondrizek Feb. 27, 1993

To everyone please keep in mind that I was really young when I wrote this and for those of you that don't know me that well this is why I get depressed around this time of year and also in the month of February:

My Grandpa

My Gift of light goes to my grandpa. He has cancer. I think that my entire family didn't like it one little bit. My grandpa is trying to beat the cancer. I was shocked when I heard that my grandpa had cancer. When my grandpa had gotten cancer it affected me if he is going to die or not. I love jy grandpa a lot and I don't want hime to die. I want my grandpa to and I don't want him to die. I want my grandpa to and not die from cancer. There are different kinds of cancer, like colon cander and you could die from all of them if not treated in early stages of cancer. I want to become a doctor and make a cure for cancer. I want to all the people who have cancer. I want cancer to be cured and not be killing people. My grandpa died when I was in 6th grade and I was never the same from then on in my life, I wish he was stilll alive today because I never got to tell him that I loved him and my grandpa cried the night he died, I cried too because I didn't want him to die now, I wanted him to live 'til he was two hundred years old. I really miss him at Thanksgiving and all of the times my and I go up to see my grandma, I think my grandma was the worst affected by my grandpa dying that night three years ago and I got on the honor roll for my grandpa to remember him.

I love you and will always remember you.  I will always think of you when I hear November rain by Guns n Roses and Angel's Son by Sevendust.

I do believe that you would be happy with the choices that I have made in my life, even though I know you are watching us from up above,  I wish you could have met the friends that I have now and the man that I love.  I MISS YOU!!!!!!