I try to be strong, not cold or distant. I try to have great faith, hope and love in the most bottomless of situations. When my strength fails, as it does so often, I try and remember to look to my Father. I know He loves me, I know he's a shelter from this desolate world and it's pain. I know he'll keep his promise and wipe every tear from my eye. God picks me up time and time again... everytime. When things in this world sting and bite, when confussion and hopelessness abound while understanding, peace and happiness are no where to be found, God is the one who I find wisdom and peace in. God never promised this life would be a happy or easy one, but he did promise we would find our best life in serveing him. How then do we serve an all knowing and all powerful God? Of what use can we be to him? Does he need us to do anything? No. We serve God by participating in a relationship with him...we simply love Him, adore Him. And then he asks us to love others...not just our friends but even our enemies, ...even the outcasts society has looked away from and ignored. Why do we love people who don't love us? Why would we forgive those who hurt us? Because in truth, we know we have hurt others, and we know that even when we were ugly, mean, spiteful, a betrayer, a theif... that God still loved us enough not only to lead us into truth and wisdom...But he gave His only son...Jesus, to take our place and our sin. Why forgive, because we are guilty too, and the one innocent man, our example, forgave us first, for everything.
I'll tell you what, I need more hope right now, I need to remeber all the good things God has done for me. I'm beaten up and tired of pain right now. I'm tired of confussion and pride. But by God's love and wisdom...by His strength, since mine is gone, i'll love, i'll serve, i'll forgive, i'll hope. I'll follow God and give him every last drop of myself, because he know's much better than I do..what is best for my life. And if I was to hate and hold on to bitterness, or if I was to fight and scream,...the bottom line would be, that my selfishness facilitated this worlds problems. So next time you're ready to lash out...be sad...give it all to God...fall at his feet, and ash Him to help you love this world and your enemies, with the same strength that Christ loved this world. God bless you all, God loves you all so deeply.