Its difficult to fathom and understand time until it has left you. Time is a major ingredient for life: it can tell you how long you have to wait, how long you've been waiting, how long it will take and how long you are taking. Even when it seems like all is lost time is there to remind you that you have enough minutes/seconds/hours/etc to get the job done.

So what do you feel like the stop watch has stopped moving. When you feel like you've done everything in your power to stop the time and be able to enjoy the moment. You get at a point where you feel like the very thing you need, time, is against you.

In the same token, its even harder to process out time when it involves love. Love can seem to make time go by so quickly in the heart of the moment, and so slowly when you have to wait. Time is essentially your best friend and your worst enemy.

I'm at a point where this one moment in time, where things are changing up so much and I need the support to get me through each second... that time doesn't care. That love has joined with time to really not give much thought to how my heart and mind could handle this altogether.

But I understand time. Time creates a past: you need that time in your life when you did something to make a lasting impact (good or bad). Time creates a present: An ever escaping mindset that you are on a schedule called life that you must complete. Time creates a future: Reminding you that things will not remain the same, that life constantly changes.

It will be my purpose in life to be one with time. To plan my life out accordingly. (to be on time to work. lol) To understand that change is inevitable. You can never control time.. but to create a balance; a blend of seconds and minutes.

Four years taught me that time is for me and against me. Its a constant fight I have in myself to have the upper hand.. and I know I can do it.


fin. (my time is up.)