I was hurt by someone i cared alot for.... i think i am gonna Drink now... till i drown....
I would drown my self in you instead of booze....
I would have given you all i am...
There isnt a bottle deep enough to crawl into,
Nor is there a reason to stay here anymore
Death sounds too appealing...
My life is what it is... Shit
My Heart had Died...
I hate the world today...
What happened between yesterday and now
My heart has died... the sliver that was left is no more....
As I drink this bottle down... I pray to not see tomorrow
I pray for release from this earth,
I want darkness... oblivion... release... death
What do you do when you are not even good enough to be a drunk or a junkie?
How do you face the day when the sun refuses to shine?
How do you go on when what you thought was the reason to live,
No longer exists?
When you fall so hard, so fast...
The fall is far and when you hit the bottom...
It always hurts... sometimes it kills
Sometimes you were on the verge of the end before the fall
And the only thing you get is
"I can't do this, I can't explain it, i don't know what to say"
My heart has died...
If anyone has hurt... I have hurt
If anyone deserves to not be here anymore... i do
If anyone deserves the end... I do...
If anyone deserves to die alone... I do
If I had the guts... If i had the gun again,
If I had the way.. if I could end it today....
I want the end...I want it all...
And I want it all to end and stop
Life is a handful of blooze with a shot of sorrow
Life is death and death is life
I have nothing left to live for.....
I have no wife I am old fashioned and want it till the ennd
I want someone to live for.....
I want someone to love me for who i am
Not for what I am percieved to be....
I am so tired of being the bad guy,
I am so tired of being Satan for others
I am so tired of being everyones demolition derby
What would I do?
Die.... nothing left... nothing right...
Nothing at all.... if life were to end for me this day,
I'll go out of this world like I came into it.ne...alone
Alone for eternity.. rotting in hell where my soul resides
Rotting in hell where I see the tides
Wash upon the shores like a forgotten memory once lived
Tired of the hurt, tired of the pain....
Tired of living... tired of here
Death.. and destruction...
I want to destroy all i see...
The destroyer of worlds I will be
the end of life and all you see
The calamity of man,
I gave you my heart, cuz I had no soul
i gave you my all... until there was nothing more
And what is left is a shallow hell
Its alright... there was nothing left to sell...

R.Christapher 2/13/2009