grrrrrr..... i know what i want, i know who i want... and still.... life likes to fuck with me.... what the hell am i to do.... i think of her all the time.... im lost without her.... and yet.... AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
i know she is the one.... and yet, i am not a patient person at all... i want what i want and i want it now... i want to grow old with her, for her eyes to be the last things i see as i take my dying breath..... yea, so im a fuckin sap.... what the fuck ever... those of you that know me , know i am an asshole 99% of the time.... you know i could give a fuck about very little in this life.... i never asked to be brought into this world, yet, here i am.... i found someone that completes me.... and yet.... i have to wait? i am a different person around here... im nice, kind, patient, sincere.... wtf?????? she makes me want to be a better person and not such a scumbag..... not such an arrogant asshole..... i know what i want in life... i know who i want... i fell.... hard... blah.... time will tell i guess... i know she feels for me... yet she holds back.... time... time... time... i fucking hate time.... ive lost too much time in my life.... i have rarely ever fallen into true love... those of you here that i have loved know what i am like... im a selfish SOB.... i have loved before... but in love is a whole nother story.... i miss her.... i need her... i want her.... and yet i have to wait.......