It is noted that life is based upon a series of rules, disciplines
which establishes a foundation, a foot hold, on the world of today.
It is ones own interest that guide the foundation of discipline,
yet there are those who's interest stray moment to moment,
initiate a guide less interest. This tends to manifest from lack of values,
and a lack of self love within, and a heart in self denial.
To deny that one is a femme, that one is a cynic, even a romantic,
is to deny the truth which in turn denies self love.

To know yourself is the first truth to ones life experience,
but simply to read philosophies, journals, and even scriptures
will not guide any one person to learning who they are as an individual.
These are the words from my mind, and only my mind, written for self reference
to think that another mind can fully grasp the concept of these words
is a foolish thought, for one cannot be taught through external means
only from the hardships and truths within them.



I have come to realize that words are meaningless
that there is no god, only the seen and unseen,
there is a heaven there is no heaven,
people are tools, yet are not tools.
I have come to understand the paradoxes of my own mind
which seep into the reality in which I perceive to exist within.
Attempting to maintain a balance is useless, for at any given moment
there must be a set deceive plan attached to what Jim Collen's refers to as core values.
Only the mind can conceive such truths, and to think that by reading,
seeing, experiencing will get you somewhere, well it won't, it is in the abstract
thoughts of the mind where all belief, truths, motivations, cynicism, even where your values lie.
To harness these messages from the beyond, and within, one must not lie about the future, or the past.
For what you see today is there here and now, and what you do today
will effect how you perceive your reality tomorrow.

--Nil Van Assur