IN the past week i have been at home rarely left the house... really no existence with the outside world haha... I have read 4 books in the past seven days and started the fifth one tonight... Listened to the songs that put a smile on my face, tried ketchup for the first time in 8 years, hate it... I mean yeah i have done the most pointless things in this week .. School sucks i mean dont like how everything around me is changing while i am standing still in my own world... my eyes are completely dried out from staring at the wall, stomach hurts from not enough food, really have no friends from my self keeping the distance from people who might actually care ... I mean its like all the sins in my life have ganged up on me to destroy everything i barely have in my life left.. so i cant change that

i mean really all i can do is Finish everyday and be done with it. I have done what i could. Some problems and absurdities no doubt have crept in on me; i shoul forget them as soon as possible. Tomorrow is a new day, i am going to begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with my old nonsense. This week is all that is horrible for me and fair to me. It is way to dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays and the day before's worst experiences...

So i will continue to get what i give and be done with it and hope tomorrow gives me another chance