Virgo is the sixth sign of the zodiac and is symbolized by the virgin. The symbol of the virgin may be used for Virgos in part becauseit shows their cool and disciplined ways. Virgos are rational,practical, intelligent people who are able to think clearly thanks tothe ruler of their Earth sign, Mercury. If you ever decide to question a Virgo, make sure you know your stuff because it will be hard to convince them they are wrong. A Virgo's thought is so precise that theyare not very tolerant of other people's procrastination or lack of common sense. They simply cannot understand why other people cannot function at the same level as they do. Virgos also pride themselves on their excellent memories.

Because Virgos have such clear thought, they may be critical of others.They are perfectionists who despise carelessness and incoherence in others. However, as critical as they are of others, they usually turn that criticism inwards on themselves. They dislike being criticized by others because they already know their own faults.

Most Virgos have an intensity that makes them both industrious and efficient. Sticklers for detail, they are very organized (psych). They are also hard workers as they are driven to do, not daydream. They are weary of making decisions until they know all the facts. Virgos are shy by nature and function better in one-on-one situations rather than in large social gatherings.

Year of the Ox

THE WATER OX 1913 AND 1973

The Water element gives the Ox a flexibility and liberty. Water Oxen are as hard-working as anyone, and particularly systematic, and are probably the quickest-thinking of the other elemental Oxen. They are much more prepared than the other Oxen to recognize the points of view of others and to think about their ideas and suggestions, making them easy to work with in a business environment. They generally consider the feelings of others which makes them good roommates or partners. In addition, their sincerity and patience ensures their popularity with friends, peers and family.

In the end though what does all that mean? Not a damn thing really other than a tendency or a box to place you in. So I often ask myself what I'm really looking for. Probably too much. The irony is this blog is pretty apparent to the signs exhibited. Being critical of one's self.

Thing is where has all of this idealism and desire for some form of order through religion or work or doing the right thing gotten me? As idiotic as that sounds there are deeper questions at hand when thinking of this.

Relationship wise I'm pretty critical, sometimes over thinking it. The women I can talk to are usually already in a relationship or talk to me about some other cat while I get the "you're a good friend/example/person I can talk to" speech. I'm fine with that and I like conversation, but I often wonder, if I like this person, if I'm even considered an option or taken seriously? I'm kinda tired of that.

Being a "possible example" (as egotistical as that sounds)  for a world that doesn't seem to give a shit. Being the person women seem to want AFTER all the life drama because they want to "settle down" or "settle for" while I'm still trying to figure out how to get started (aka "good guys finish last"). Being the cat coworkers and clients seem to take advantage of "because he's a good soldier!", but at who's cost I wonder?.

I don't want to be an asshole but at some point I need to do like Indy in the Last Crusade and take that step I'm unsure of. Maybe that will kill a lot more of these feelings, help me realize the truth or at least bring my apprehensions down some.

I haven't experienced too much compared to others. At 35 I'm supposed to know a lot more than I do or at least have experienced it on some level. But here I am with a stack of comic books from 1987. I like the gift, don't get me wrong. I can see it create opportunities. Especially now. But I got a lot of shit to get over.

God willing I'll have what it takes if it comes to pass.