yes, i'm listening to bullet with butterfly wings, inspired me to write a blog now, actually it just ended. but on to what i have to say, i've been experiencing really strange symptoms lately, definitely not the 'normal' me would be feeling.. i'm not even getting into it right now, but its made me really emotional, in my soul, i don't believe it's life-threatening, but it's still serious, and i need to get the stuff taken care of, soon.. whatever it is, i'm praying for the best, and believe i will rise above this. all the while i've maintained a great mood, despite how weak and powerless i've been, i'm even MOSTLY sticking to my diet, mostly meaning a few VERY microscopic slips here and there when the situation calls for it.. the fruit is the only thing thats helping fright off the symptoms.. i wonder why? i'm not on THAT bad of a sleeping schedule.. it's really nice to find a lot of old friends and peers on here lately, and it makes me feel nostalgic, in a good way, the good memories, FINALLY! hahaha all i know is, whatever has been plaguing me i WILL OVERCOME.. i promise, because one day i want to be healthy enough to have my own kids and raise them at full capability, it's my one true dream in this life, and i want it more then anything forever! i know it's so far away to wish for a family, but seeing so many people experience the blessing of expanding their lives, it makes me cry a little, because i get scared, i pray to god to make sure he knows i've been living the best ways i can to make my dreams true, i have held my heart clenched tight my whole life for any bit of true glory in life, for ANY of my dreams to come true, and IN MY HEART, i know they will with time.. now that i know people remember me and see the good in me, i can show my REAL GLOWING SMILE. i love you all, and i pledge that it is my belief that we all need to be strong and healthy at any cost to help others, for we can only help if we ourselves and strong enough, i pray for the strength and power everyday, but only for the good of the world.. there is such thing as real superheroes, and sometimes, i want to be one.