Like Monica says "Hell Nah!". I am getting rid of everything bad in my life. I guess since it is only the beggining of the year, its a good start. Just get rid of all the trash and baggage in my life that has been holding me down. I'd like to say that it has been men that have been holding me down....but then I would be telling a lie. It is I! I whom allowed these men to grace my presence. I have been consorting with the wrong type of man whom I have allowed to de-value, de-motivate, and de-stroy the very essence that is me. So to that I say HELL NAH.
I need to get back what is me. Being that it is the beginning of the year I am cleaning out house. Cleansing myself and ridding my life of all the negativity. Do you ever notice how negativity begats negativity? It really does. And when you around people who are positive...it helps you to be more positive too? I have been depressed about a lot of things in my life...but dwelling on my depression does nothing, but bring me down even more. That ain't nothing but the devil. So again I say HELL NAH.
For the last couple of years I have been unproductive in regards to the visions and dreams I had laid out for myself. I would initiate something and never complete the project I set out to complete. This year for me will be about transition, change, and improvement.
Beginning with relationships, I will no longer lower my standard or accept less than what I am, just to be with someone. I no longer want the "casual" relationships I had come accustomed to, just to avoid developing feelings. Because the last time I had one of those type of relationships...I actually caught feelings and ended up getting hurt in the process. Oh and I will try to stay away from having "physical" relationships until I meet that "special one". I'd like to say I would wait til I got married....hmmm could I do that? Well thats something I can work on.
In regards to my career, I would like to either get into a field that I enjoy or start a new business concept. Either way I want to do something that I enjoy doing. I want my work to be fun. So I will begin focusing on the things that I really enjoy doing and see if I can make a career of it. I guess I better get started and do the necessary research :0)
Most importantly, I would like to get right with God. Cleanse my spirit. I know I haven't been walking in the way of the Lord. Its soo much easier to do wrong. So I have been praying and reading more. I know there is a lot more I could and should be doing, but I gotta start somewhere. At least I realize the changes that I need to make.