i miss my friends from back home.  i miss dekalb.  i miss the Grove.  i miss the simplicity of bring drunk at buffalo wild wings or out in the country with my farmer friends.

the shootings at NIU have broken my heart and i'm not entirely sure why.  i didn't closely know anyone associated although my friend from grade school was in the class as well as several of my mom's former students.  and yet thinking about it gives me the chills and reading all the schools who "are all huskies today" makes me cry.

mostly i miss my friend and roommate carrie, who was a cornerstone for me through out my great transition from special rec to farm hand and back again.  i doubt she'll ever know the impact she had and continues to have on me and how much i miss her friendship.  i hate that i missed her marriage and everything that has made her happy the past year, although i celebrate her happiness.

i am happy right now.  i have found that person that makes me feel like the world makes sense, the figurative "the one, "  and i am happy with my life working in the hospital and making attempts at taking care of the 3 horses that depend upon me for food and love.

i only wish happiness for those around me.

that, and carrie, call me sometime.  i miss you.

amy.