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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Taurus

City: Indianapolis
State: Indiana
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/1/2005

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Monday, March 27, 2006 

Current mood:  cheerful
Category: Life

i don't know why but i felt like makin an entry...so...here it goes...

My best friend got ahold of me and basically told me how much she still loves me and reconfirmed our friendship b/c i thought it was gone.  I don't think she realizes how much I love her.  Its horrible to think and basically know that we won't be anything ever besides just friends...  She told me some stuff and it hurt me b/c to her we are just best friends but to me those things mean more to me than just friends.  Girls don't understand how some guys take things i.e. kissing someone on the cheek, saying you always love them, and saying other things as such.  Don't play w/ guys hearts we have one too....And if you have ever seen the movie just friends its basically the story of my life as well as my best friends wedding.  Except the difference between me and the guy in just friends is that she was single still which is not the case for me. He had a chance and I don't right now or ever probably .  She asked me how i felt after talking all night and her disclosing some information to me that was very personal *why i'm not saying it* and i couldn't explain it was like I love you too much to be hearing this I just want you to realize that i'd rather not talk as much if I can't be more than friends but to be her friend would mean the world to me and just knowing she is alive and my bestfriend would mean the world.  Emotions suck! Relationships Suck! Everything about the situation sucks!  I think if he wasn't in the picture we would be in love and everything would be amazing...One more thing is that as I was just getting over her I am starting to like someone else and I was proud of myself for getting over her but she has to go and call me and say the same things she always does and it makes me think maybe some day in some lifetime there will still be hope and that small hope still keeps me to believe that we will one day be together.  GOD HELP ME! Crazy days! Besides all that junk...i'm GREAT! hmmm....TIMMY YOU ARE AMAZING! DREW CAN'T WAIT TILL NEXT YEAR CRAIG THANK YOU (for more than you have an idea)! DAVID I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU! CYLE YOUR AWESOME! JIMMY I HOPE WE'LL STAY FRIENDS! DANIEL I LOVE YOU AND YOUR AMAZINGNESS! hahaYou guys have been awesome and I appreciate everything you do and put up w/ from me! I hope we'll grow old together lol! I'm out!!

When will I find my princess to sweep off her feet!?      

 

hopefully someday soon!

Currently listening:
In Between Dreams
By Jack Johnson
Release date: 01 March, 2005
5:39 PM
 
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J-buck

 
Sorry RICK I FORGOT TO PUT YOUR AN AWESOME ROOM MATE AND A GREAT FRIEND THAT I'LL MISS NEXT YEAR!!
 
Posted by J-buck on Monday, March 27, 2006 - 5:36 PM
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Mrs. Dobbs

 
jacob i can read... I do know how you feel, but do u want me to stop telling you i love you?  I'm confused...i tell you things b/c u r my best friend and have been since the 6 grade.  Just let me know how you want me to be and i'll do it.  I can't change how u feel, but don't let it ruin our friendship...Your princess is out there and when she comes along you'll be thankin god you didn't get stuck with me. You can delete this if u want but i had to respond.  And boys do play with girls hearts as well, just think there's a girl out there that u treated the same way u feel i was towards u...and u know who i'm talking about! love ya...
 
Posted by Mrs. Dobbs on Tuesday, April 04, 2006 - 2:04 AM
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Autumn

 
Oh Jacob...I love you bro...Hang in there...Jami is right, someday it will all make sense...You just keep going...I have to share this analogy with you because it's just amazing...It was in this book I read about relationships...So Adam was created and God then put Adam *to sleep* and took one of his ribs and formed or created Eve.  You see, it wasn't until Adam was asleep in the will of God could God bring Eve to him.  Just fall asleep per say in the will of God and do the everyday task of just living and watch as God astounds you with His goodness...He thinks the world of you and just wants you to be the best person you can with all of the qualities that your wife will NEED from you and vice versa...Just be that friend as much as you can without hurting you...because if it hurts you more than it helps you than you need to just stay away for awhile but if not that be blessed with even the friendship...I love you man and you were wrong...I hadn't read this ;) 
 
Posted by Autumn on Sunday, April 16, 2006 - 11:23 PM
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H★Bomb!

 

I feel the same way Jakey poo.

I hate emotions too buddy. I hope everything is better now.


 
Posted by H★Bomb! on Thursday, April 20, 2006 - 9:33 PM
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turrra
Tara Potthast

 
woah.. that's really strange. i have had almost an identical situation.. i would finally be getting over a particular someone who i had liked since i was thirteen. he would say things like," i wonder if we'll ever have kids together." this would make me think ok. maybe we have a future together. then he would act like he didn't want to be with me. talk about messing with someone's heart. we stopped talking then he would call and say the same things. i always thought there was hope.. finally i had to cut him out completely which is not an easy thing to do because i will always love him to death. sometimes i get the urge to call him.. but it would drive me to insanity. i had to realize maybe we were on different paths and if it were meant to be, then it would happen. i had to let go of it and let god do the rest.
 
Posted by turrra on Tuesday, November 28, 2006 - 9:00 PM
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