i've been busy. busy with school. busy with work. i figure i get back to the homestead 10pm during the weeknights. i have a full day of class and sometimes work in-between. it's a crazy life i live now. i feel barely human. on the weekends, i try to relax, but there's always something to do. social events, time to hang out with friends, time for more studying.

rarely is there time to decompress. but i chose this life, could've been stuck in another boring day job. i don't' deserve sympathy here....somewhere some person is working to provide a home and food for their family. he or she is the real hero with all the sacrificing. i can't complain.

all i decided to do was re-educate myself, or better myself as benjamin franklin would call it. it's not for everyone. anytime i feel low or depressed, i counter it with more studying or working out. music is still there for me, i had forgotten how good it was to play piano while singing your heart out.

lately, i am reminded that life is good. that i miss the people that are no longer around. i tend to laugh at myself a lot more now. hope that i won't make the same mistakes again...no more expensive records or pets for girls again. as the rolling stones say some girls are not worth it.