^_^;; whats up?
hey all...or whoever actually reads this ^_^;; i havent updated in a while so hold on to your hats were are going for a long ride (Journal is going to be fucking long LOL) alright well in here i havent updated since...*thinks* pffft I dont know...

soo ok...John is coming to visit this weekend (I hope) he has to do some car stuff..and hopefully it will all work out. I miss him so much...pfft like you guys couldnt tell by the constant journal with nothing but him in it LOL. anyways he might get to stay two weeks! two weeks people!! ok if you were away from someone you love for two months two weeks or even a day with him is very very exciting. i still have to go to school though so.. he will have to sit in class with me..or just hang out with one of my friends..maybe go home and chill.we are going to celerbrate our *thinks* 5th month anniversary since we became boyfriend and girlfriend. I have never been in a relationship before and neither has he..and frankly I dont think I will ever have another boyfriend *wink wink* ^_- he is perfect...so loving.. caring..smart and not to mention sexy. he has a high tolerance for me ^_^;; I dont know how he does it...and hes..bad Amber! stop talking about him. I am going to put you guys to sleep LOL. nevermind..no matter what i am still gonna talk about him..

anyways we are going to go out on a romantic late valentines day/ anniversary/I havent seen you in a long time Date ^_^;; ok so maybe i can combine that... we are going on a (Valinannivmissyou date) ^___^;; yes yes..i know that is weird.anyways we will hang out.play some viddy games ^^ and then possibly walk on the beach and have some fun ^_- and then go to dinner and a movie..though it all depends on money..Both John and i are college students of course we are broke! LOL anyways I am the type of girl who like to be romanced..gee can you tell?? I am so looking forward to it.
moving on to other things..

i have been struggling with college a little. remember folks that this is only my first year. the first year is tough ^_^; I am learning alot and art apprietiation class is cool. we learned about surrealism and other stuff. which was nice because for once since middle school the teacher actaully took two class periods to show us two different movies on the surrealism. the first one Mr. Crane said it was made when silent movies were around..i think in 1929 by a man named Salvador Dali. it was strange i tell you..phew i heard people in that time when the movie ran out of the theatre screaming and having temporary fits of insanity. I dont blame em..it was interesting though if you take a closer look at the movie and watch it over and over..stuff has meaning to it..and you must realize this is probably about a mans dream. i actually enjoyed it though. then we watched Jumanji..Ahhh now people know what i am talking about..we only watch the first 45 minutes so he could compare movies a bit. big differences. Jumanji well is not a dream and the special effect are computerized unlike Salvador Dali's movie. and it was a popular movie. nobody ran screaming from it. the timeline of jumanji actaully when in a order. Un chien andalou did not..it was jumbled and mixed..sorta like a dream. one minute you can be at home at night and the other minute it is daytime at the beach. In my opionon Salvador Dali was a genius..which most artists are ^__^;;

moving on hmm let me talk about what has happened in my life recently. my brother returned out of nowhere again and started harrasing my mother on the phone. I am so sick of him..all he has caused my family is misery and pain...i wish my mother had enough guts to stand up to him..or at least tell the police what he has done to us...he almost killed my step-dad..and he didnt do anything..he is always in a drunken rage and he never listens to people..i could say more..but all i want to say is i hope one day he meets his demise..and i dont like wishing people that..he took so much money from us and used us..because we tried to help him and trust him..I just wish he would disapear forever....

ok my aunt kim is having problems of her own to because of greedy money grubbing people...well she had to sell all her possesions in the end and now she is living with us..i wish the world wasnt so heartless..

well people this is the end of my journal for today ^_^;; i know it was long..well see you guys

Love, peace and chicken grease!