I've been away for a while. I've been......building my castle so to speak. I'm finally comfortable in my surroundings, with keys to shit that I own. I mean that literally, and metaphorically. At the end of last year I prayed for patience. What I got was so much more. People that I least suspected to link up with threw up their support, and people that I though I'd be even tighter with by now are nowhere around. When things used to go completely different than I planned, I used to find it unnerving. Now, I find comfort in knowing that you don't have to run around like a chicken with its head cut off; you can, simply enough, allow situations to reveal themselves for what they are. I wear my emotions on my sleeve. This is good and bad....but it's me. As naiive as it sounds, I'm JUST now realizing that many people don't do this. There is no transparency in this business. Why? It's because people are LIARS. Not only do I not mind this, I find it amusing. I guess this is the era of the 'online life.' Here you can build a character and dress it up real nice. Smoke and mirrors baby. So again, I feel comfortable in knowing that everything I said I did, I did. Some of it (very little) is public record. Pfft. So who do you cling to when your 'friends' evaporate? Yourself, your family and God. With that said, in '09, I've outfitted myself with my gasoline and gloves. Everbody I want with me is with me, so I'm burning the bridge for any late-comers. Hahahhh! Should've joined me when you could.......'cause I'm obviously about to turn the heat up. Patience, everyone. Patience. Oh yeah, holla if you feel the same fucking way. 1