I haven't posted in a while mainly because I have not had anything to post. I still don't really.I am trying to change a few things in my life but it is like going up hill in mud up to my knees. It isn't that my life is extremely bad. It is just boring.  Could be worse I could be on an insane adventure like my old friend? I am wondering if I will ever see him again. We are both lost.
Have you ever wanted to do something that you know is really stupid? In this case it involves a woman. She is the kind of woman that I would like to end up with one day. She was one of the reasons I came back to Opelika.I had to do what I should have done when I was here to begin with. The problem is she is a friend. Though personally I would be willing to risk a friendship to find out it could possibly be more I am certain she wouldn't. I guess I do not put as much value into friendships as she does. Personally I have only had friendships that were light on my end.  I have had friends tell me their deepest pains and weakness and I have never really reveal anything like that.  I like to make things appear as if nothing can really phase me. I will let you know somethings do. I prefer not to show it though. Some say that it is a bad thing because one day I am just going to explode with everything that is pent up. They may be partically right because sometimes I find myself being short with people. well extra short.  Anyway I went on a huge tangent from what I wanted to talk about in this blog. Oh well another day another blog.