spent more time than i can afford
wasting away time that wasnt mine
hoping you would change your mind
there is a memory that i hold onto
everytime i swallow it down
its bitter
my vision is blurred as this gets brighter
just like a star, dying out
i reach for it
gifting myself with blisters
closing my eyes
to painful to watch your departure
to hard to look into those stained glass eyes
as they tell me that nothing matters
especially me
go figure
the desperation
like an asthma attack
or the fear of asphyxiation
everything fades to black
all i hear is cold stale laughter
when this dies out
im not coming back
ill wait until the memories are no longer remembered
then
maybe after