You will in fact get over your ex.  It took me a couple of years.  I never thought I would get to the point, whereas I don't think about him all the time.  Life does move on.  Don't worry yourself about the things you did or the things you could have done different.  If he loved you... then he loved YOU.  What ever crazy shit you did was you.  If he was truly in love, he would still be around.. especially at this moment in your life.  Don't forget to look around and see who has stuck by you.  They are the ones who actually love you.  Everyone goes through difficult times, everyone makes mistakes and everyone has regrets and yes.. everyone has thought that they were going crazy at one point or other... We are only human.  You are one of the sweetest guys that I have ever met.  You have a good heart and a great personality. I haven't actually spent time with you in a few years.. and just the other night I had a dream about you.  I woke up missing you, more than I have anyone in a long time.  I woke up and it felt like my heart had been torn out because the dream was just a dream.  Was a very random dream.  I haven't really talked to you in 3 years or so.  So, yea.. 3 years later and a dream like that??  That should tell you how great of a person you are.  I am here for you if you ever need anything.  And stop being so hard on yourself.  Screw your ex.  He lost a great guy.

 

Wow... this may be the sweetest blog comment I've ever gotten!  Thank you Steve!!!  He's not a bad guy though, I'm sure I freaked him out...  Though I agree with you, given the circumstances, not much I could have done differently.