: uttering or given to censure : containing or characterized by verbal abuse

— vi·tu·per·a·tive·ly adverb

And at the risk of using to much source material I want to share a passage from "An Unquiet Mind" by Kay Redfield Jamison, because it really summed things up for me:

"I have become fundamentally and deeply skeptical that anyone who does not have this illness can truly understand it...  It is not an illness that lends itself to easy empathy...  What I experience as beyond my control can instead seem to him deliberate and frightening...It is, at these times, impossible for me to convey my desperation and pain; it is harder still, afterward, to recover from the damaging acts and dreadful words...  Love can help, it can make the pain more tolerable, but, always, one is beholden to medication that may or may not always work and may or may not be bearable.  Madness, on the other hand, most certainly can, and often does, kill love through its mistrustfulness, unrelenting pessimism, discontents, erratic behavior, and, especially, through its savage moods."

She's got it 100%... I love this lady and her book.  At any rate I decided to take a moment and blog in the bubble bath before I do the homework I was assigned in therapy today...  Discovering my true self - so that I can learn who I am and set boundries, and not let people run me.  Sounds fun right?  I realised almost immediately when given this assignment that I have absolutely no idea who I am and know nothing about therapy terminology when it comes to describing it.  I may rifle through some of Danny's textbooks to couch my language in clinical jargon.

Today was a wonderful day!

Tomorrow I will start looking into this health care reform bill again, my interest in politics has resurfaced after the terrible shooting at Ft. Hood.  We'll see if I can still read that material at the breakneck pace that I used to.