third time isn't such a charm -
bring me back home
where the trees grew tall and children walk
from shore to shore
take your photos back
I have enough of my own baby
so take your memories back
and i think i speak for everyone
when i say this place is not our home
(its not our home)
but i hope that we can someday find
a better place for you and i
(for you and i)
send the mailman
to homes of broken souls and awkward lines
letters mean nothing
search through your
drawing pad where i left you notes
you won't look over
and i think i speak for everyone
when i say this place is not our home
(its not our home)
but i hope that we can someday find
a better place for you and i
(for you and i)
close the door (say screw the world)
pull the plug (kill the patient)
draw the shades (block my light)
no the moon's not coming (out tonight)
and i think i speak for everyone
when i say this place is not our home
(its not our home)
but i hope that we can someday find
a better place for you and i
(for you and i)
through all these years, dealing with fears
no one should have to know
i can't decide, to stay or hide
so i'll just follow
you through the door, you selfish whore
let's both run out on my life
i'll be a man, though i can't stand
i'm still alive, i'm still alive
and the third isn't such a charm.
life is nothing but a set of numbers -
a writer, a poet
a thinker, a flow-er
two people, two minds
too seperate, too same
three places, three daggers
free worries, free lives
for all of my life i have drowned in the shadows
five more minutes of this shit and i'll turn around the gun and say
sixteen years i've been fighting
i've got a lot to show for it, i can take a punch and throw a hit
seven is not a lucky number
i've seen more luck in lightning strikes, even selfish friends are worth a fight
eight chances, eight legs
ate fire, ate dust
nine killers, nine tries
nien worries, nien lives
ten meetings, ten starts
ten thousand and ten reasons
eleven months have come to pass and and i know that they've gone much too fast
twelve moons have waxed and waned
i've seen the harvest and the blue, yet i still don't have a clue
thirteen's more lucky than you think
it signals all the changing tides, yet i still insist to hide alone
in this house, in this city
in this tattered, broken soul i will find home
i will find my way back, find my way back home
these numbers toy with me
hunt me down and make me run
go erase your lines
let me start at one
a quarter past dandelion wine -
through streets the people quiver
one's bent over and I hear through a whisper
"why'd they have to be so bitter?
they need to consider, really need to consider
how this makes them all feel."
i feel so fragile and i feel so drained.
i can't see how they do it but i won't surrender.
by this time next summer, the sky will brighten
and i won't be stepping in these mortal fears.
kill me, what's one more day to make things more real?
bring me, closer to you so I can finally feel
through the fog, through the aggravation
i see you standing near, telling me not to fear.
"look around, see the answer.
It's not hidden in numbers, not found in spinning wheels,
nor can be solved by another."
But how could I slip and watch them feast on unhappy?
Everyone needs some joy, for them I'd sacrifice my own.
How could I sleep at night knowing
that I'm the only one who can touch the wind?
kill me, what's one more day to make things more real?
bring me, closer to you so I can finally feel
(and you...) i've been so blind and callose.
(you...) i've learned such ignorance.
(and you...) tried so hard to force this device, forgot all along about you.
(you...) forgot what it all really means. forgotten how you make me feel. what is this worth anyway?
you always have been, and always will be my Happiness Machine, from now and forever more.
oceans, aliens, satellites -
the sun's below the horizon now and i could not be more alive
a comet came in and swept your absence to the side
let's move up north and get away from this mess
save our money and we'll be on our way
a shooting star passes with waves of captivation
i would fly with it if that's any indication
but i can't get off this cruel, weathered ground
but my telescope still shows me what i've found
are you out of my reach or just afriad of reaching?
let's move up north and get away from this mess
save our money and we'll be on our way
find a fancy house with rooms of imagination
find a better way to use our inspiration
month late calendar -
glimpses of tomorrow seem like yesterday
glimpses of midnight seem like mid-day
i need to turn this page before it's much too late
i need to turn this page before it's much too late
can you just honestly expect me, to lay down and take this?
you should know better by now that i won't take this
what did you think i would do here all alone, alone?
i'll go for a drive and hope to lighten my mood, my mood
cars crash into banks of muddy water, and left with no escape
i'll drive on down the highway looking for a clue
too much time on my hands with nothing to do
no one's out to catch me swerving and speeding
times like these give my life some meaning
can you just honestly expect me, to lay down and take this?
you should know better by now that i won't take this
what did you think i would do here all alone, alone?
i'll go for a drive and hope to lighten my mood, my mood
interlude -
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kisses and arrows -
wait outside for a minute, i have hair that needs straightening
you might be there for an hour or two so just get comfortable
i will take my time and glance at you from the bathroom window
blowing kisses and arrows just to make you feel uncomfortable
wait a year or two, maybe then i'll be into you
get on your knees and pray
and hope that my heart falls for you some other day
wait outside for a minute, i have other hearts i need to break
you might be there for an hour or two so i hope you'll understand
i will run away and never have to leave my bedside
faking wishes and making liars of all the ones who held my hand
wait a year or two, maybe then i'll be into you
get on your knees and pray
and hope that my heart falls for you some other day
i am strong because i make myself strong
(i am strong, i make myself strong)
i am wrong cause i don't know where i belong
(i am wrong, where do i belong?)
(where do i belong?)
the art of dreaming -
"i shouldn't have, you know?" is like a fall to a dream.
take it back you liar, you fucked this all up. you fucked this up.
you say you're sick of dreaming but you never sleep.
take your blindfold off and let the light burn in your eyes.
for once in my life i will be free of this.
dying of heat from bullets shot by your sides
i should have seen it coming
"what the fuck is wrong with you?" screamed false commitment.
force a brick through a diamond, ram a knife through your throat.
i tried to make this work i gave it my all i really did, but you just had to throw that all away didn't you? you can't even give this a fighting chance? what ever happened to believing in long shots? you can't just leave me like this and expect me to forgive you. what about the trip i made to see you? what about the time and effort i put into having a chance, just a mere chance of making this work? what about my heart and soul going into this? what about the conversations we had? are you just going to throw it all away like this? why does it have to be this way?
why does it have to be this way
at one fifty-three and forty-two seconds you threw it all back at me.
i should have seen it coming but continued to fight.
you say you're sick of dreaming but you never sleep.
take your blindfold off and let the light burn in your eyes.
for once in my life i will be free of this.
the simplicty of being awake -
i apologize for getting way out of hand
you bend me to your will, to your every demand
while you litter on the highway i'll be picking up your mess
just doing my best to impress you
now i've made a big mistake and i can't take it back
and it looks like i have been caught in the act
whatever came to my head has now flown out the door
so i'll drop to my knees and beg you some more
i didn't mean those words that flew out of my mouth
i didn't have a clue what i was talking about
this shouldn't end up like this, cold and buried and bare
i'll do as much as i can to let you know that i care
sometimes i just want to disappear and never reappear
i never meant to hurt you and i sure as hell don't want to lose you now
i apologize for getting way out of hand
you bend me to your will, to your every demand
while you litter on the highway i'll be picking up your mess
just doing my best to impress you
now i've made a big mistake and i can't take it back
and it looks like i have been caught in the act
whatever came to my head has now flown out the door
so i'll drop to my knees and beg you some more
i didn't mean those words that flew out of my mouth
i didn't have a clue what i was talking about
this shouldn't end up like this, cold and buried and bare
i'll do as much as i can to let you know that i care
sometimes i just want to disappear and never reappear
i never meant to hurt you and i sure as hell don't want to lose you now
i am sorry. i messed things up.
i am sorry. please forgive me.
but now i see the truth, you are you and i and i
caught up in this story, forced into a lie
let down all your boundaries, nothing will stop me now
look into your cold, cold heart, open up your mind
let down all your boundaries, nothing will stop me now
look into your empty heart, open up your mind
let down all your boundaries, nothing will stop me now
pulling me down -
i can't see the sun through all these falling bombs
sanity is more scarce than water
entrenched and hiding out of sight
we can't seem to dig deep enough
to escape the morning light
this outcome is all wrong and now we are too far gone
you can't fight an army if you don't have any troops
and your strategies are only sending us in loops
now i can't bring the medic when you're pulling me down
so say goodnight and rest your head on the ground
they think they know, but they have no idea
they've never been here before, before
the ocean swallows, without remorse, without a second thought
i try to fly, but gravity is pulling me down
i'm overboard without strength to swim
diving headfirst is the latest trend
it should be safe from this height
but shallow water is Death's best friend
you can't fight an army if you don't have any troops
and your strategies are only sending us in loops
now I can't bring the medic when you're pulling me down
so say goodnight and rest your head on the ground
abandon all plans now
i've found a better way
to lead us through this storm
and get out of this place
heart to heart (hidden track) -
i think i've made a mistake again
because your lips aren't moving and your fingers aren't stumbling.
have i said too much or maybe just the wrong thing?
or maybe i've just done just the right thing a little too much.
would you like a break
or just some time to take and get far away from here?
you've got me lost inside your eyes and it comes as no surprise that i really hate it here.
you've never acted like this before
and your sudden change of heart it sets me uneasy.
oh haven't you learned a thing from all those movies?
i promise you now a picture perfect ending.
would you like a break
or just some time to take and get far away from here.
you've got me lost inside your eyes and it comes as no surprise that i really hate it here.
something tells me this isn't gunna be easy
but i'm sure it's worth it.
something tells me this isn't gunna be easy
but i'm sure as hell it's worth it.
tracks 2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, and hidden track written by: mathew laramie
tracks 1, 10 written by: mathew laramie and samuel beachard
track 4 written by: dustin glackin, mathew laramie, and bobby spence