Pain.
It..s not new.
Most all of us have felt it..more than once.
So why does it surprise us?
Why does it feel new each time?
Why does it go away easily sometimes..and take forever to go away other times?
Why does it feel like the pain will never end?

Guilt.
It..s not new.
Most of us have felt it..more than once.
Why does this pain make me feel guilty?
Am I allowed to feel this pain?
Is it wrong to feel this pain?
Is it wrong to deal with it the way that I am?

Healing.
It..s not new.
Most of us have felt it..more than once.
I look forward to healing.
I need healing.
I fear the healing will never come.
I need the wounds to heal, even if the questions are never answered.

God.
He..s been forever.
Lots of people know Him.
I need Him.
I have had my times of wandering.
I need Him.
I want Him to make it all better, to answer my questions, to give me what I..m asking for, to hold me, to make it all better.
He does it His way, in His time, and as much as I allow Him.

Please help me allow You to do Your work.
Please forgive me.
Please put me back together .. I am broken.
I can..t put the pieces back together.
Please soothe the pain.
Please erase the guilt.
Please give me Your healing.
Please be God in me.