at 6pm today (3 July 2009), it will be exactly 8 years ago that i unconditionally committed myself to who i thought was the love of my life. there were more than a few ups & downs; but what we have been through, i thought and felt and knew that we would last forever... at least, to me, it seemed like we would. how wrong i was...how wrong i am...

i know it means nothing to you anymore, girl. we're only still together by a few pieces of BS legal paperwork anymore. even though i know things will be a more than a million times better for me now that i'm finally letting go & have come to grips that you're somewhere across the country, physically; and a universe away otherwise, i'm still thinking of the incredible times we once shared together, and the only time ever in my life i can say that i was truly happy...

" the clouds won't clear
don't want you near
i've learned what's true
just who are you??

i'll never forgive
i'll never forget
so filled with disgust
you let me down "

   ~ "Disgust" / Cider 1993