The Truth be told, I'm a lousy friend.  I'm selfish, messy, unfocused, undisciplined and hypocritical.  I'm not afraid to acknowlege these character flaws b/c they don't mean I am a bad person.  I am simply the sum of my parts; some are good, some are bad but most just are me.  I suppose good and bad are just subjective- see previous blogs- but there are some universal goods and bads.  So however others wish to judge me, so be it.  Its never been a concern of mine the conlusions others make of me.  What is important to me is that I know who I am and what I am: someone who sincerly tries to do right..by me.  Real freedom, real enlightenment comes when we let go our concern about what others may think of us and truely follow our own moral compass.  Whatever anyone may think of my lifestyle, my attitude my socially frowned upon choices is irrelevant to me.  I have my own moral compass.  That voice in my head that tells me when I am doing right and doing wrong.  We all have it and we can't lie to it.  Well its with that voice I'm saying to all of you as a new year begins, that I appreciate all of you who are in my life.  Yes I fall short of showing it and yes my actions often to not warrant your freindship but I'm am still grateful none the less.  Know this about me friends, what you get from me may be limited, but it is genuine and it is for real.  No bullshit here.  If I'm am lucky enough to have you in my life, know that I love you and appreciate you.  You have all added to my growth as a person and brought me happiness.  I am truely a blessed man and a thankful one.  Heres to all of you my friends, new and old, Happy New Year... Be true to yourselves, love yourselves and find a few friends to love as well.