I was at work when I heard the news about Michael Joseph Jackson.  I thought it was a joke..... I could not believe it. My co workers thought I was kidding around and I kept saying Mj Dead..... That did not seem right as it came out of my mouth. I never thought I would be saying that in my life time.   I remember when I was about 6 yrs old Mike being the first man I ever fell in love with.  I would scream and everything over this man. Like millions of other girls I was going to be Mrs. Michael Jackson one day.  I think of these moments and I laugh now but back then I was serious. I remember I had to be about 7 and I failed a math test and my mom was going to give me a spanking she could not do it because when she asked me why I didn't pay attention in class I told her with a straight face that I had michael Jackson on my mind.  She had to leave the room because she was laughing.... I had the tears in my eyes and everything. I really remember that. So my mom came into the room and said well you will not see Michael on tv tonight.... I was on my knees begging and crying please don't do that mom please I will do anything just let me see Michael on tv I have got to see him well she let me see the Jackson 5 on tv.  Michael Jackson was part of the fabric of my life. When he did off the wall I loved it, When Don't Stop til you get enough came out I was floored it was truly the jam. When MJ showcased the Back Slide choreography by Jeffrey Daniels of Sharlamar fame and yes I do remember seeing Jeffery do the dance on soul train before Mj did it on Motown 25 I thought it was cool then when Jd did it and I still do.  But when Michael did it I think you could hear a pin drop around the world when that performance took place we witnessed musical history being made.  Mj made music video history more than once He was the first African American artist played on MTV because at the time MTV did not allow African American Music artists to have their videos played or aired. He was the first.  HE made history again with one of the longest videos. It was 13 minuets long.  He up the antie when it came to producing and making videos before videos did not make sense or even matched the theme of the song but it was MJ who changed that. I can go on and on about Mj's musical genius and his sherwd business dealings and all his public persona but his family knew the Mj that we did not know. I know they as well as his millions, billions of fans will miss him. I am glad that I was alive to see a person who has influenced music in a big way and now that he is gone  we will feel his influence forever even way past my life time.  RIP MJ...... RIP.