Sometimes I get sick of those bastards all walkin' around spoutin' their predestination bullshyt yellin, "YOUR STEPS ARE ORDERED! BE JOYOUS!"   Cause what do they really know anyway! Bunch of brain washed neoconservative Herberts, who are they to presume that joy lies in the path of my journey. It could just be a quick jaunt to chaos, a left turn from despair, and WHHOOoooooaaaaaahhh! SPLAT!!! didn't see that coming.  I mean yeah yeah yeah, "the universe within is the universe without" and all of that retoric, but for whom? For me, strugglin' to pretend it's all ok and life is as good as it can or should be right now?....or... is the universe within for the benefit of the universe without.  The reflections of ourselves are the very components of our world! OOooohhh!  Duh!  i c now.  I'm upset cause I'm reflecting bad light, carelessly.  I suppose a phase of silent penance is in order.  ... ... "white man's voodoo stuck up in my brain."  . And how come my damn window isn't as BIG AS EVERYONE ELSE'S! what about that shyt. argh.