(earlier)

i woke up with just enough time to drink coffee and go back to sleep.  i used to not like coffee.  i used to not a lot of things. 

i wished i could fall back asleep today, but i couldn't, the morning had already taken me.

(now)

so here i am wondering why Olympics are cool, but finding nothing else to do but watch them, wondering if i held my breath and closed my eyes would i disappear?

would anyone tell me if i disappeared? 

sometimes i think most of my friends are ghosts.

but how would i know anyway?

cnn plays the replays of tomorrow's news before i can realize everything changes anyway and I wonder when the spaceship is coming…  thirty more minutes.  just enough time to eat a yogurt and clean the coffee table.  i used to not like coffee.  i used to not a lot of things…sshhh.  (i can't understand anything when all the ghosts talk at once)

basketball jerseys are different than they used to be, and i can't remember the last 3 players on the original Dream Team, but it doesn't matter anyway, i just heard that more people disappeared yesterday…  all they found where the people were last seen were more tickets… they didn't say what kind of tickets.

i didn't go to the gym today… need to go tomorrow…  but all i really want to do is eat pizza…  all i really need to do is take a shower and go to sleep…  (i feel like if i fall asleep i'll disappear…)

obama is on the television

i hope the asteroids don't hit us

my feet look weird from up here

if i held my breath and closed my eyes

                                        would I disappear?