So i am gonna start this by apologizing to anyone i piss off. but what else is new...

I think back to this time last year on days like this. I can be the first to admit that i was not the greatest person in the world and i did offend and piss off alot of people. this year i promised to myself that i would try and change and that i would not be the same person that caused all my friends to hate me. and on a day like today i wished to celebrate with all the people i love. that was not the case, i did manage to see some of my friends but many resorted to leaving a shot message on a website. this hurt me alot and i felt like it was a slap in the face. everything i thought i had done to change my ways must have been to no avail. and it might be selfish of me to say all of this but it is truly how i feel. on a day like today a handful of friends, who i truly love, were the only ones to try and see me. others seemed to not care at all, all i wanted today was to see all my friends and it seemed like no one made an attempt to see me. i guess i still have a lot of work to do if i want people to truly understand i care.