Am I a bad person if... I was to say that... I need a girlfriend to truly feel happy again with my life? I feel like I am, but I don't mean in the physical kind of way, I mean... I guess it's always depressing me at school about all the dudes talking about girls or talking to girls freely, without any nervousness or tension or worry, or having someone to talk to for hours on the phone, about everything.. I guess I just feel so lonely, I have no one to really talk to at school, I feel like I spend all 7 hours emotionally/mentally "alone", then I come home to being alone (myspace would count, but no one talks to me lol)... I guess what I'm trying to admit or say is...... I just miss how much my ex-g/f and I talked before she forgot about me, only caring about this computer game called Audition Dance Battle and never called and always had an excuse to go when i called... Always talking about everything and nothing at the same time, for 3~4 hours a day..... relating perfectly to me, she was the only girlfriend that knew what "1337" means, the only g/f that knew how much addicting computer games was to me and even played with me, the only g/f that knew and loved Elfen Lied, the best anime ever, like me and loved every poem I wrote her and kept my poem book dedicated to her ever since she left lincoln a semester before me.... she was the only girlfriend that knew every secret I ever had, sadly, she said that I... "smothered" her, that I never gave her time to herself... I still actually have the letter that she sent me on gaiaonline.com, I never opened it again after the first time i read it and I never logged on to gaiaonline.com ever since, it hurt that much... If anyone wants to read it that badly, msg me and ill try to brace myself to log on for the first time in 4 months and copy/paste on here..... Oh and yea, stereotyping is seriously fckin it up, tho, all girls do nowadays is automatically assume you're just trying to get some at night, but seriously tho sex is overrated, and too much life-changing fck-ups come from it, What happened to kissing? makin out? lol I don't know... I don't know, maybe I'm just tryin to find true love too soon in my life "wtf ur 16, almost 17, wtf ur black u needa be gettin girls pregnant" damn i hate stereotyping