This is actually a song.  I usually don't allow people to know that I'm writing about myself when I am but I decided to not hide it this time.  It's a little insight about me and my childhood and how certain things in your earliest years shape the way you are.  I love my parents and my family and I say that so that you don't confuse my adoptive mom (mom of the present) with my biological mom (mom of the past). This song is about the mother that gave me life, not about the one who gave me a chance in life.  It's also about the girl that will never know.  I hope you all enjoy this for what it's worth.


I wish I could tell you, "your beautiful" in your t-shirt.
Hold your hand for no reason at all.
I wanna hug you when your sad.
Tell you that no day with you in it could be bad.

But you won't ever know cause I won't ever say.
I don't want to give you a reason to go away.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.
I will keep my distance and never let my love show,
I don't want to ever let you get too close.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.

I wish I could walk you home in the dark.
Kiss you on the cheek and brush back your hair.
Sweep you off your feet,
And one by one carry you up the stairs.

But you wont ever know cause I wont ever say.
I don't want to give you a reason to go away.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.
I will keep my distance and never let my love show.
I don't want to ever let you get to close.
Cause even my momma left me,
Bu that was too much love and it's different this time.

I guess sometimes people love you so much they've got to let you go.
Atleast thats what they say.
But I don't understand what I did wrong,
I was only 2 years old. 
But I promise I'll be good if you let me stay.
And thats the last thing I remember as they drove away.
Without me.

But you won't ever know cause I won't ever say.
I don't want to give you a reason to go away.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different thits time.
I will keep my distance and never let my love show.
I don't want to ever let you get to close.
Cause even my momma left me,
But that was too much love and it's different this time.
This time.

-Maurice M. Davis