I’ve been wanting to write this blog for months now. Snippets of it have danced through my mind,
going off in tangents and then dissipating like vapor before the words could be
captured. Random phrases have taunted me
– playfully emerging from time to time, just long enough for me to experience
them, going nowhere but within.
I’ve been tempted from time to time to put forth energy and
focus to grasp some of it. Isn’t that
what writer’s do? But no, I’ve not done
so. It occurred to me today that I’ve
lost that need to express myself so precisely.
I’ve lost the urgency and analytic desire to organize and package my
thoughts so others can understand. In
doing so I’ve discovered this ability to spontaneously speak from my soul to
this man – something I’m not sure I’ve ever been able to do before. It’s vaguely familiar – energy and vibration
escaping my lips creating sound alive with meaning. I’ve communicated with my children that way….
So instead of these energies finding their way to my
fingers, they’ve found their way to my lips and embraced by this man who seems
to have appeared just to hear me. Yes,
he hears me. That doesn’t mean he
understands me of course… lol… which makes it all the more exquisite. He takes me in – mind, body, and spirit – and
we exchange energies rather than consume them.
It’s an experience of freedom and connection all at the same time that I
always knew existed and always feared I wouldn’t recognize if it landed in my
lap. In fact, I don’t think I recognized
it at all. I discovered it, layer by
layer in this beautiful man, as he’s been discovering too, and we’re nowhere
near done yet!
Recently the best surprise ever was discovered. We both have a deep desire to serve humanity,
and while we knew that before in vague terms, it’s come together as naturally
and vividly as has our love. We’re
embarking on starting a non-profit organization to provide funds and resources
for mental health. Not just any
resources – but the specific diagnostic and treatment resources that helped me
to reconnect with the ~Moon Goddess~ within me, to integrate that energy back
into myself, and to be able to finally let go of so much mental and emotional burden.
We’re in the very early stages, but it’s a dream come true
for me that we’re doing it together. He
has his own special strengths and skills while I have mine, so we’re starting
from scratch together to learn all about how this non-profit, humanitarian-serving
sector of life works. We know how it
doesn’t work, and we know how it could work.
The only thing that stands between “could work” and “IS WORKING!” is us.
I miss MySpace sometimes, but I absolutely love this
experience of living my love rather than just writing it. I think now I’m ready to do both….
Oh, and I almost forgot!
The name we’ve given this project, and perhaps might just stick as the
name of our non-profit is… The Beautiful Mind Foundation.
Lots of Love My Friends….
~B.