I've been getting really stressed out lately, mainly due to situations at my work. I feel if I get it out here, then hopefully it will take something from me. I've just been getting sick of the fact that they don't seem to respect me and think highly of me - that I'm just there, and can easily be replaceable. I've been doing the same thing for 1.5 of the 2 years I've been working there, when I was promoted from student to part time - and only because I asked them to do it. They were hesitent about it then, and I should've know that it would only lead to more aggrivation. They liked the idea of promoting me without a raise, because I was already "making" what a part time junior sales manager was supposed to, although it turned out as I was later told that I was the first "junior" account manager at CTi and that they probably just used that as an excuse to not give me a raise (and later to find out that any promotion results in an automatic raise). February of 2007, I was brought into a private meeting with my then Sales Manager, and the Human Resources person they hired to "make everything better." They promised me a raise by April 07, because it was technically unfair that they were paying me far below the "base" pay for my position, and that in order to keep me from quiting, and because I could sue them (I'll get into this in a moment), they needed to significantly increase my pay. It's not January 08, and I have not seen this increase at all. I have talked to them a few times about it, and have given up, mainly because their reasoning is 'we're still looking into it.' My main frustration comes from the fact that they promised one other employee this same situtation, and loe and behold, the other person received their raise by May.

Now, the whole issue of being able to sue them stems from the fact that there are males in my department who have been working their for only 5 or 6 months that make more then me, leading to a possible sexism case. But, what irks me is that about half of the department is new, within the last year, and they all started, STARTED, at a lot more than what I make. I've been here for 2 years, and I'm still a 'junior,' or now the HR person made them change it to 'Associate.' No one else in sales has started at this position, all of the new people started at the regular Sales Manager. Why am I still at associate? I've asked them, and no body will give me an answer. 2 years, and I'm still the associate. Someone could walk in for a sales position and be give regular account manager. All the more reason they can give me "below" base pay, and get away with it. And they funny thing? They don't want me telling clients I'm an associate, because it will make them feel like they are dealing with untrained people...

I've been promised many times that I would be trained to be a back up for someone, or trained how to do more complicated work - yet, whenever they hire someone new, they give it to them instead, and I'm stuck to do the same boring job I've been doing for 2 years. I have absolutely no motivation anymore, I'm not being challenged.

They know I won't quit, this is too good a job for a college student with an apartment to leave. I'm happy to work here, the people are great (notice I said people only). But sometimes I wonder if I can do better? Maybe they feel that I won't be staying anyway, once I graduate, and by them treating me like a child doesn't really help convincing me not too. I wouldn't mind sticking around for a couple of years, but everyday makes that feeling less and less secure in my mind.

Anyways, just a long rant. It was really for my own personal benefits, but if you did read it, then thank you.