I woke up this morning hungry
It has been years since i have fasted this long
What i realized though is that i know exactly where i will break my fast tonight, the place i will go eat and the friends that will join me. As i have tried to use these last three days as a chance to put my self in different shoes i realize that i can not come close to imagining what others are going through, just a glimpse. There are people who have no idea where their next meal comes from, who wake up every morning hungry.
Tonight i will eat until im full, my hunger satisfied. But to those less fortunate, they do not have that luxury, i imagine they rarely eat their fill. Food is a mocker to them...always gone when they need it most...laughing at them, they hear it in echos, barely above their crying baby
Food, Water, Shelter are their basic needs...what are mine...or worse, what do i "think" mine are...
new clothes
watching "that" movie
eating at "that" restaurant
buying "that" guitar
these things are things others in true pain would never think about
i want to not feel ok about having so much food at my appt, when there are those that are starving, i want to feel stupid that i have a closet full of clothes when others wear the same thing everyday
i pray the Lord will "break my heart for what breaks his, open up my eyes to the things unseen, Show me hot to love like You...have loved my"
more to follow
wch