I don't know why shit like this happens. You try to make the best out of whatever little you have, but like that bam...it's gone. I don't know how someone can act so cold as if nothing happened. I know there were problems, and I know shit wasn't going the way it should have like before. Shit happens, people go through crap in life hoping that someone will be there to support them. Then again you have others who just give you one pat on the back and expect everything to be fucking ok for you tomorrow. I'm sorry but shit doesn't work like that all the time. If you want something you make it work out. You have to try to understand everything as a whole not just what fucking affects you. You don't spend so much ime with someon just to cast them to the side... Loving people don't do that only fucking bastards do. I guess people just like to be added to the list of those "we do not speak of".

I don't know what I am going to do. The things I want to do now people will stop me from doing because they supposedly care.... yeha ok fuck you people for not listening to what I have to really say...Fuck you to those who think I wasn't there for you...Fuck you to those who were not there for me when I need you most...Fuck you , Fuck this world, Fuck doing shit to make other people happy.. where the fuck is my happiness..

These are my feelings and you can not tell me I do not have the right to feel them. This is me.. accept it or walk away like the weak people who do not understand.



Hitorikiri no kanashimi wa doko ni yukeba kieru
Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete
ima nara wakariaeru
ano toki no kimi ga nagashita namida no wake sae mo....

Sayonara