yo i cant believe dis shit turned out the way it did

 Iight im level wit da whole situation. I aint giv 100%, but it aint like i sat on my hands either. I let my position be known and was gonna take it from there, but apparently i didn't have the time for all dat. I wish i could get a massive do-ova wit dis shit cause i would have DID so much more...SAID so much more. As much as i wanna believe i did everything i could have, i kno i didn't, and dat shit hurt 4 reel. I aint gonna cry or no shit like dat but dat shit hurts bad..reel bad. To put so much time into something and for it to end with you on the lose end is like the most painful shit ever.Its like a piece of you was just snatched from ya ass and u dont know wat to do about it. I thought i could get her....i thought i still had a slim chance...but da window of oppurtunity is open only for so long. I thought she was da one....she might have been, but i prolly wont ever kno now. But ima hav to keep my head up and move on because i'd just be fuckin myself ova if i were to dwell on dis shit. Lightning struck on saturday night and my ass was safe, but no bad deed goes unpunished. Someone once said "The one thing that hurts a man most is when he wants something that he can't have".....That was one smart ass mother fucker...