I look at the stars and sky every night, and wonder if you can see me from up in heaven? Do you look down on me and watch over me everyday and night? If I know you at all, you are watching over me around the clock. I miss you so much Dad, and I have missed you every minute ever since you left us that September day. Mom took things pretty hard there for a while, but you know how strong she is and you know that she's handling things pretty well right now. How she does it beyond me, but you always told me that mom had strength that you just don't find in ordinary people. She misses you so much dad, but she knows that she'll see you again one day when you both have your reunion in Heaven. Then there's Shane. In all honesty, Dad, I don't know how he's taking things. He still doesn't call us, and still makes no effort to try and get a better relation with us as brothers. I know that the way me and Shane have always acted toward each other always made you sad, but I'm gonna be the bigger man and try and reach out to him...becuase I think that's what you would do if you were me. So I haven't told you how I've been since we lost you, have I? Well, Dad, I'm not doin' to well. I think I'm taking it harder than anyone else is, and I know that I'm the only one that can't seem to move on. I can't help it though, I miss you so much Dad. You were my father, my protector, my role model, my hero, and my best friend. I know that you were sick by the time that I was born, but you still always made time for me and did things with me even when you weren't feeling good.

I feel so lost without you Dad. There's always something, no matter where I go, that somehow reminds me of you and that's when I can't help myself and I just break down. Things just seem out of place since you've left, and it's a feeling that I can't describe to anyone. One thing that still makes me sad, and even sometimes sick at my stomach, is that I feel I never really showed you that I was sorry for all those times that I yelled at you and got in those stupid little arguments that I always seemed to start. I hope you know that I'm sorry for all the words spoken in anger, and  I'm sorry for all the times that I just walked away from you when you were trying to talk to me. All you ever wanted for me was to be happy, to live a good life, and to know that I would be OK. You would stay up as late as you possibly could when I would stay out late, just so that you knew that I made it home alright.  You were an awesome Dad, and I couldn't have asked for one better. You have taught me so many valuable life lessons, and I use those lessons in my life everyday. The man I am today is really because of you. You taught me respect, discipline, honor, love, kindness, and so many other things.

Here lately it's been extra hard on me. Why, I'm really not sure? All I know is that the pain and lonliness has been taking a major effect on me physically and mentally, and I got so depressed one night that.........I won't even tell you what I thought about doing, becuase then you would be so dissapointed in me and wonder why I would even think about doing something like that. I'm sorry Dad, but I wasn't in my right mind. I didn't follow through with any of those thoughts, and I thank God that I didn't. God was with me that night becuase he reminded of something, something that made me stop and think about how lucky I really was. He reminded me that, even though he took one angel out of my life, he put a different one back into it. I'm talking about Danielle, Dad. I'm sure that you've seen her while you're lookin down at me from Heaven, and just let me say that she is the greatest. She is the one person who is helping me change my life around the way that I want it, and I thank God for her with every breath that I take. You always told me that one day I would meet a nice girl, a nice girl that would be the one who would love me for who I really am, and this is the one.

Well Dad I prolly should let you go, there's to many things in heaven that you haven't got to see yet. I hope that Heaven is as beautiful as they say it is, and I hope that there's a spot up there for me. Tell Shannon that I said hi, and that I love her and miss her too. Well I can't wait to come see you again someday, and then there will be nothing that can ever take us away from each other. We will be together for all of eternity, and that's a thought that I could think of everyday. I love you so much Dad, and I can't wait to see you waiting for me at those pearly gates. Love, your son,
                                  Brett.