well fuck... what a hectic day and night i've had...well night especially. i love how i walk home to a drunk family... everyone all fucked up and gettin all crazy and loud... but at a time like this, it made me realize through thick and thin how much i love my family... its crazy(at the time especially) to think back or to get into the fights and arguements with ur siblings and ur parents as well... you feel like they dont understand u or urs feelings about something, which brings forth the argument... u then, later on come to the conclusion of "god my family is sooo stupid", or "god i hate my sister/brother", or "my mom/dad is soo fuckin dumb and not understanding"... then when u sit there and think about this comforting after thought... u realize that no matter what, when or where, your family is and will always be there for you and believe in you in the end... the fact that theyre blood is much more comforting because you always have them to fall back on through hard times when the craziest shit gets rough...
the fights you get in... the arguement you go on for days about... the miscommunication and misunderstandings you have with each other... its all jus a speed bump that you get over, no matter how long it takes... call me cliche, but time actually does heal... and through that time ur realizing that, u also figure, without them, you wouldnt be who and where you are...
if you feel like you actually hate them and wish they would die... try puttin a roof over ur own head, clothes on ur back and food into your own stomach and then be satisfied with the fact that you still hate them...
its jus crazy to think back to the fights and crazy bizzare shit i've gotten into with my sister and then to hear her tell me she believes in me... to see her cry and tell me she's proud of me seeing me walk at graduation... to be told if she had a son, she'd name it shawn because she thinks i'm funny and loves how i am...
without the crazy drunk people downstairs that raised me, i wouldnt be who i am and im blessed to be where and who i am...