My life has changed so much from September 13,2008 to September 13,2009, Well we all know I adore my lists so here goes kid…

1.       I moved in with my mom, my sister shortly after  myself

2.       I forgot to say number 1 should be, My  girlfriend and I ended things. ON LESS THAN DELIGHTFUL GROUNDS.

3.       I then have a broken heart and living with my mom.        Not a good combination.

4.       I needed a release and crying in the shower wasn’t cutting it.

5.       Oh wait let me mention I started bartending, after that tearful shower I would put my make up on and my tight jeans and look in the mirror and say “I can do this” “I HAVE TO DO THIS” I mean by that I can get through day without your voice, or scent or smile. I can do this.  I Did for awhile.

6.       Then I had a breakdown, I was drinking so much at work I couldn’t walk, I couldn’t talk and most importantly I couldn’t feel. I couldn’t hold my eyes open, let alone focus on what I was running from.

7.       So here come the holidays, well by this time I found comfort in substance, I had a chance to undue that cryin in the shower, But declined the offer

8.       Then I go to jail (FOR A DUI) it was bound to happen

9.       Then I go back to school and start a more respectable employment choice.

10.   Would I go back a year? Would I do it again? Would I do what I did? Most likely yes, But not if I knew then what I know now.  Just happens “Now” is too late.

11.    Someone told me you can find good in anything, you just have to look hard enough.  So what if you find that good and it just isn’t enough?

12.     I have learned not to look back to the beginning of this tale in anger,  for once I am not scared.

13.   This is a new chapter to an new book, and the old one has been shelved never to be read again.

14.  I CAN'T END THIS ON 13, WHEN 14 IS MY FAVORITE NUMBER..SO WHEN I MET HER
 She was... disarming.