Kindness is, indeed, its own reward. I am sending my kind wishes out to my friends and my enemies alike.

I hope you all get what you came for.

My enemies are not actually impeding me, but rather, they continue to give me reason to evolve, to overcome and keep on learning about love. I will not name names and publicly defame anyone- for obvious reasons- but here's one that doesn't appear to be obvious to some individuals: it doesn't make me feel better about my life to cause hateful feelings toward my "enemies" in others, no matter what they have done to me. I don't revel in spreading my anger around because that is not why I am here.

I have learned beautiful truths and been comforted when I quietly let the place where anger storms to subside into the good whispering of my soul so free, "you have everything and there is nothing to fear."

I have everything, and there is nothing to fear. Same for you.

I found love and insight because of my dark experiences with people who thought they were damaging me, who didn't intend to do me any good. I did not thank you then in the shock of pain, but I may thank you now in my peace. I wish that my clarity here were contagious for the sake of the sweet children of the world and the world herself.

Now, I've been hurt by malicious rumors, hateful acts and mean-spirited public insults. It hurts me on behalf of the people who commit these acts, because they are keeping themselves trapped in ignorance and turmoil... They, too, are deserving of the goodness that we are offered every moment and from all directions. This isn't information, however, that can be forced into someone's mind who is mentally positioned for a fight. I could basically give such a person a pretty flower and a big hug and some home-baked organic carob chip cookies and they would only see it as an act of hostility. That stinks! I've been sighing and hurting for the people who are not yet free to eat delicious cookies! Proverbially speaking, naturally.

And maybe it hurts me a little bit, too, to know that even though I have offered my best, it was still "not enough" to bring these people up to the heights of their learning. They have to spiral round and round until they, themselves, find their truth and change their patterns. But this is not a disaster, this is what Most High intends . I can be no judge of the ones who suffer.

I once blamed myself for not being able to heal the ones in pain. I suffered along, and added to the agony of the earth. I realized, through the birth of my first child, that a suffering mother is not as helpful to her child as one who is calm and joyful.

So I climbed out of the deepest dark with her, and left behind despair for the mountains and the brightness of good hopes.

There is a garden inside of me which wilts when I burn the ground, wilts when I hate and am angry. I reject the force that tempts me to burn with fury at the injustices committed in blindness. I don't buy it. Fire won't put out fire. Two wrongs, you know?

I invite you all to reject the force within that tempts you into blindness and hatred as well. Being a responsible human being means more than just gardening organically or nursing babies- the physical realm is just where your soul shows up.

The beginnings of everything happen in the energy all around- in the spirit within and all around. Why spend this valuable time being hateful, hurting others, when we could use those hours making useful changes in the world from within?

We could instead take the time to calm down and act from love instead of fanning the embers of greed and power to the detriment of ourselves and our own kind. Why choose to do what hurts so much, over and over and over- dragging as many people into our fiery wakes as we can grab on the way down?

I say to the women who are pulled low in this way to BE CAREFUL when you get close to another. BE CAREFUL to the men who give away their real power for the traitorous thrill of anger. This is fire- and this is the way we burn. Please, my friends, BE CAREFUL. Consider what you do before you spread your pain around.

This is my way of letting a little of my heart show, it helps me in times of difficulty to reach out. I thank those of you who made it to the end of my thought here.



Love and light- you are Love's precious child, and I am your sister.

Lara