Well, I think I might have learned a valuable lesson over the weekend. Just because you have the ability to know what your friend is saying about you to other people, it may not always be in your best interest to find out. Or maybe the better lesson is to not be so quick to trust people. Basically, I have this friend, let's call this person Chris, that way it could be male or it could be female. I want to protect their identity so as not to embarrass them or ruin my friendship with them. I've told Chris a lot of personal information about me and things going on in my life, including recent developments that I'd rather nobody other than those I'm really close to know about.

But over the weekend, I ended up viewing an e-mail between Chris and someone else I'm friends with that was about me. And they seemed to be questioning something I was doing or at least wondering why I was doing it. Granted, I didn't have access to the first e-mails in the exchange so I don't know exactly what they were calling into question, but it did make me wonder. And while it wasn't about the most recent developments in my life, who's to say that wasn't part of another e-mail exchange or even an in person conversation. I don't think I can confront them or ask them about it because I would probably appear to be a snoop which I suppose could be viewed as something just as untrustworthy.

Long story short, I've always kept my private life very private. And there are only a very select few that know just about everything about me. But I feel the need to reduce that even more. Maybe I'm just paranoid but I suddenly feel completely untrusting of just about everyone. Chris was someone I thought I could really trust, and perhaps I can, but I don't feel it's worth the risk anymore. And of course we can't forget the girl that recently taught me about everything I need to know about trusting someone you just met. But that's a whole other story that if I trust you enough to share it with, you already know it.

So if there is someone out there that can put my mind at ease, please by all means try it. I hate not trusting people but it seems every time I start to, they find some way to show me how foolish I was to do it.