When you work hard for something, regardless of circumstance, you can earn the right to enjoy the fruits of said hard work. Otherwise you're a poser and quite, well, ew. I hope you remain yourself through your hard work, and that not only you but others can see it shine as brightly as possible, and then some. Times look bleak, sometimes, for genuine invention and genuine entities, but carry on. Carry on.
Do something for the kids while you're at it.