two blogs in one week? let alone the same YEAR? say it ain't so!
it's so. so def.
what?


i felt compelled to talk about the new music i've been posting, and the new year ahead, and the new media paradigm facing our nations actors and writers, and new kids on the block... and... and noodles...

i'm not doing myself - or you - any favors by digressing so far so soon. i'm sorry about that.

regarding the music...
the songs are better off being called expositions instead of songs. i'm really just trying to share the direction / mood / color / space / bolsh i'm writing in, and seeing if that vibes with people. you guys. people that care about the music i make. i make it from a place that only knows how to make music, but i make it for you guys. so your opinion and tastes matter. anyone who makes music and tries to sell it for a living is lying if they tell you otherwise.
i know the "expos" are not done. i know the vocals are flat, the guitar parts don't nail the click, the mix is horrid and the volume is low... typing all these things out makes them sound like excuses. i don't mean them to be. i guess i'm really just trying to explain their, um, vulnerability. the songs. not the excuses. wow. i suck at blogs.
the "expos". they're yours and mine together.

i'll avoid the last few "news" and skip to thoughts on the new year...

i need to work harder. i need to give myself a chance. and a swift kick in the ass for being so afraid for so long. i'm still afraid. but i won't be. i want to write new songs. i want to take vocal lessons. i want to find people who will push me in a recording process to capture something incredible. i want to play a show for every single person who has ever written me on this freaky myspace and encouraged me. i want to... ...

thanks everyone. i feel like i just got out of therapy. the check's in the mail.
happy new year,
.j.

oh yeah - i posted a new EXPOSITION ... if you go ... and i think it's my new favorite. sorry. i mean OUR new favorite. je t'aime. je sure? yes. i'm sure.