October 6th marks the 2 year anniversary I help put my 18 year old dog a sleep.
I logically know I had to put her down . It was heart breaking seeing her go into senility
But I think she also had a brain tumor. They told me I could keep around for a few months at that point
It would only be for me not to have to deal with her death if I kept her around.
I still feel guilty about it all . The hard part about it the vet my dog chucky goes to is the same .
They will sometimes put us in the same room we put my dog down in.
I start to freak out and want to cry it brings all those fucked up feeling back in a instant.




She looked very similar to this after she died it was very peaceful.

The good part that came out of this I was given my son Chucky 9 days later.
He kept me from losing it. I had a little baby to focus on and I know it's crazy but he will always be
like a baby to me. He's all boy very different than my girl . Chucky loves to get into fights with dogs that out weigh him by 100 pounds . He's rough loves to pee on everything even if he's been outside playing for a while. I love him with all my heart and I'm very grateful I was given a second chance at it.



He just has to look at me and he gets away with anything he wants.


Love you always baby girl,

xoxo


P.S.

Sometimes I like to think she met Ronnie P. when he past away so they wouldn't be lonely wherever they're at.