love love LOVE this!  and i have my 2 cents to add, of course.
first, what you are wanting to come from this SPONTANEOUS act of life is beautiful and seems really self-less.  so many ppl want a baby to fix a marriage or hold onto a partner or bring in money or WHATEVER.  but you want PEACE and FULFILLMENT!  that's awesome!  it will definitely teach you to find (and recognize) peace in moments you never would have otherwise.
 
second, oh ya.... anger.... that's one i struggle with too.  and i haven't found ANYTHING (except lithium) to help me with it.  anger is easy to go to, especially when you're use to it.  i recommend practicing NOW on how to work through conflict without getting angry.  good luck. 

and third, don't fret about getting everything done before the baby comes.  i mean, ya, def tell dad before s/he gets here, but so much of the "stuff" you "have" to do doesn't really matter.

i wanna tell you the story of when i went into labor.  it was the 30th of dec and i was already dilated to 2 centimeters and was hoping to make it to my Jan 7th due date, or at least the new year.  i spent all day walking/driving around town picking up things before everywhere closed for the holidays.  in fact, i walked myself straight into labor.  my doctor had been no help at all, and did not even tell me i should do lamaze or anything, so i never did any of that "prep work".  then at the last second, she told me to "go get a book or something" to prepare myself.    uhhh ya.  thanks dumb bitch for treating my like a dumb bitch just because i'm young and unmarried.  LIKE THAT HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH DELIVERYING A FUCKING BABY!

ok anyways, so i went to the library and got some books and instructional videos.  that night as i'm working on her crib blanket/sheet set (making from scratch of course) my water breaks.  now, i had NO idea that's what was happening because NO ONE told me what would happen!!  i just kept having to pee over and over again, until the "pee" wouldn't stop.  i was so confused!  so i started researching those books i'd checked out!  and then i called my mom and said, "hey mom, how do i know if my water broke?  this book says < this > but this book says < that >."  of course, i'm super calm.  but my mom freaks and starts screaming "YOUR WATER BROKE!  I'M ON MY WAY!  I'M TAKING YOU TO THE HOSPITAL!"  i kind of half believed her and kind of half thought... oh i don't want to be in the hospital for hours.  i'll just hang out for a bit. 

so instead of packing my bag (which was suppose to be packed WEEKS before), i popped in the lamaze video i had checked out that day.  when my mom got there i was still watching it and told her to hush because i was trying to learn how to have a baby!!  she FREAKED!  she threw a huge fit like a little kid until i agreed to go to the hospital like an hour after my water broke.   

and ya know what?  i did great!  i let my body take over, kinda sunk my concious self into my deep innerself, and told myself "trillions of women have given birth and lived just fine afterwards.  my body is programmed to do this!  cavewomen did it!  cats do it all the time under porches and out in the snow!  and i'm in a big safe hospital with trained professionals!  i can do this!"  and i said no drugs and told the nurses if they didn't like my all-natural-drug-free-walking-around-doing-what-i-want birth, they could go away because the baby would deliver itself.  only one nurse stayed.    and she was great!  6 & 1/2 hours after my water broke Hazel came into the world!

my point being..... you can do this with your eyes closed, your hands tied behind your back, and yes, even in a cave if you have to.  you are programmed to do this.  and you WANT to do it.  really, you don't need much more then that.

 

I love that Ruthie!  What a kick-ass approach :)  I am pretty fascinated with birth and birthing (I have been reading about it for years) and I firmly believe that it should not be scary!  I mean, I know, of course it is scary that you feel like you have no control and it's inevitable and oh-god-what-if-something-goes-wrong... but... I think that thinking of it as scary is what makes it so painful (and the myth is perpetuated down through the generations...) because you are fighting your own body.  I know a woman who had all three of her children at home (water-births) and felt no pain whatsoever.  She likened it to intense meditation.  She's a doula, so I guess, you know, she had been around it enough to know the ins and outs but... damn, that's how I want it if I'm ever lucky enough (hmm) to have kids.  
 

Yes, you are almost halfway there, and have every right to be terrified. You also have every right to be excited. You are half way to the rest of your life completely changing forever, and such a wonderful way! So what if you're not registered or have toured the hospital yet? Then again that might be an experience you need to have sooner rather than later, but at the same time, that's something that can wait. With Skylar I signed up for birthing classes when I was about 7 months. There's really no need to do it any sooner than that. Yes, you are half way to the scariest moment in your life, but believe me, and anyone else who has had kids that giving birth will seem like a freaking piece of cake compared to what raising a CHILD really is, not just taking care of your baby. Birth is something you will look back on and I promise you will think, it really wasn't that bad. Even if you have bitch ass nurses like I did, they don't matter. YOU'RE the one going through the most pain you could ever imagine in your life, but you WILL survive, and you will hold one of the most amazing gifts the world has to offer. Birth is called labor for a reason, it's damn hard work, one of the most unimaginable pains you will ever experience, but the second you hold your child and realize the true meaning of a miracle, it all fades away in time. You will survive, just like so many women before you. What you really need to prepare yourself for, in my opinion, if being a mom and raising your child. It's something no one can prepare you for, it's something no one will be able to give you answers to, and something that will be constantly learning about. Those are all of the words of wisdom I can offer right now.