I spent the bulk of my life in search of what me and my buddy Chris Bryan simply call "magic movie moments". They usually involve a girl, and they often involve music, sunrises, laughter, charming  introductions, and heartfealt goodbye's.

 I have been very fotunate to have had a handful of cinema quality moments that I would truly consider to be magic.A few outrageous situations that inexplicably unfold in my favor, a few times where I found myself with a girl that was "out of my league", and a few times where things went horrible, but I was fortunate to be with people that were able to emotionally lift my spirits...

Anyway, I always said that it is at these moments that I feel alive, and that the rest of my life is just trying to force a "magic movie moment". I cherish all of the magic moments from my past. And I am always trying to duplicate them, or even better, to have brand new, completly original moments. I constantly try to meet people in outrageous ways, or say things that sound like they come from a Dave Matthews song. Usually it goes like this... I meet a cute girl, and I say things that I think are really clever, and she laughs, and she says some things that are clever and I laugh... and I think she's perfect... and I think it's a perfect moment... and then the next day she says something dumb or she stops laughing at my jokes and it's over. I lose interest.

I seem do my best to mold my life into something that resembles my favorite movies... most of which are some sort of drama-comedy hybrid, and involve charming, relatable charactors, acheiving some level of enlightenment by overcoming the obstacles of life, and in the process, they fall for the nearest beautiful female.

Much of this is why I always thought I would be single most of my life. It didn't seem condusive to relationships... you see, every romantic and dramatic movie starts when the couple meets, and most of them end when the commitment is made between the two charactors. The standard premise is... boy meets girl in crazy way, boy falls for girl despite adverse situations, boy and girl overcome adversity and decide to stay together forever... and Scene! Nobody really cares what happens next. Modern film and literature have conditioned us to beleive that the only time interesting things happen are in the first few moments that a couple spends together... not in the next eighty years that they presumably live happily ever after. It's the big charismatic bang, and then the big boring fade. So the logical conclusion to make is that it would be much better to have as many of these "begining phases" as possible. Because obviously the "commitment phase" isn't even worth telling stories about.

I was laying in bed a few moments ago, wide awake, checking my email at 4:30AM, ..and my girlfriend woke up with a huge smile on her face... she proceeded to tell me all about the hillarious dream she just had, which had something to do with asian women getting sprayed by firehoses (sorry if that offends anyone, there was much more to the dream than that but that's all I can remember)... anyway... I couldn't even pay attention to her story because I was so excited that she woke up and I was going to get to spend a few minutes with my arms around her as she fell back to sleep. She was so cute. She thought her silly dream was so funny.

I looked at her smile and my heart melted. Which happens pretty much everytime she smiles. I am constantly taken aback at how much I love her. I only wish my mind was strong enough to capture the exact image of every smile she has given me. I cherish every one. I have this video on my phone where she makes silly faces at me, and then she laughs with her whole body. It's perfect. Some nights when I miss her it's the only thing that gets me through.

Anyway, before I get too personal and sappy and I lose everybody reading this, the point is that I am begining to realize that the true magic is when all of your moments feel like magic. Me and Emilie haven't been together forever, which to some people, takes away some of our credibility as a couple. I hear people say that were still in the "honeymoon phase". But really, even though we have only been together for 238 days... that's at least 238 times as long as any other magic moment I've had.

Every time this woman smiles it absolutly melts me. That has to mean something.

I am so excited to be with her. She is still perfect to me. And I'm a better person when she is around. I think I'm going to make a film about the joys of the commitment phase. About all the magic moments I have had in the last seven months, with the same perfect girl, over and over again.

 That would be quality cinema.