felt a bit inspired today.

First off congrats to everyone that had films in the KC Film Fest (KC Jubilee). It was a lot of fun to be part of this event this week. Thank you Kathy and Sandy for all your hard work and letting me be part of the volunteer team.

I am very exhuated right now... but I wanted to see if I could must up a poem. I have a lot going on right now in my life (good stuff going on) and ... well... I wanted to vent some of it.

Lets see.. (I just write whatever comes to my head)...

04-26-09 (officially 04-27-09, but I have not gone to bed yet, since it is 12:26 am)


Anyways...

04-26-09 Sunday night 12:27 AM
Long Day.
Really Long Day.
I wanted it to be special, well ... and it was.
I meet a lot of cool people.
I took a long walk.
I watched alot of cool films.
I fell asleep even, catching myself nod here and there.
I dont live in a silent world like some of the films
Are ... or maybe try to be.
The create sometimes a fairtale world for us to be in.
Or sometimes, they just try to make reality more real.
I was reminded, by a rythm, that music is such a joy.
Experimental a times, it was jazz and all that jazz can be.
I drifted a bit into the music as if I was there on stange
Singing along.
I think I did a lot of singing today in my head.
Inside all that, I still wonder... I still dream.
I wonder if I am happier than I used to be...
So still a bit alone wanting more.
And I know, I want more, but I also know, I have to be patient.
And wait.
Thinking ... is not the solution. Breathing, I dont need to worry so much.
I just need to keep moving forward.
Looking back they say, is always dangerous, .. but I have come so far.
Looking back... is okay, so long as I dont linger.
If I look back... just glance, and let it go. I have learned.
But never look down in shame.
I have nothing to be afaird of.
Walk tall, walk proud. Dream.
Dream about my own dreams.
Walk quickly, but never be in a rush.
Sing out loud sometimes, even if not in tune.
Just remember there is more than one way to sing.
My voice is not always my best voice, but my heart, my spirit, is much more.
I need to believe myself.
And with time, things will come, and I will smile.
I will will drift, but not drift alone.
If I linger, I will linger with pride.
And sleep very soundly.
Indeed.

~ Nathan


That was a bit all over the place. I need to write more. I am really out of practice. I did enjoy that a bit. It takes a lot of soul searching, and practice, to really be able to express myself with any clairity and creativity... something you learn with experience.

thank you. (I am very gratful for a lot of things today).