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Well the class went fairly well, for those that showed up that is. Half the students felt it was OK to verbally commit but not to notify us that they were not going to come. So there I sat for an extra hour waiting for no show students. Now I dont mean to be a bitch about this but isnt it common courtesy to call and say I am not going to make it. Where is the respect for me as a teacher not to mention from one person to another? Why is it OK to just blow a person off without a word?
I guess I live by if I give my word thats it I must do it, period. Oh wait, isnt that what pagans are supposed to live by "Your word is your bond?" Maybe my ways are just outdated.
I did get 1/2 hour BEFORE the class began that a student couldn't make it but would take the next class. Now again not to be a nasty arrogant person but I decide WHO I teach and I do turn away many who I don't feel comfortable with because I feel my Karma is locked with these people for eternity once I start to teach them. Now if people cant get their ducks in a row with over a month to make ready for class why would I ever want them in the next class and who even says there will be a next class? Goddess I hate teaching in Fargo and this is exactly why. So many want the power, they want to say "Oh I was formally trained in this or that," but they don't want to put in the work, hell they don't even want to be inconvenienced to show up. How I long for students like those I have on the Internet that really care and really want to do what they have to to become the magickal instrument the universe created them to be. Where is the passion of these students that work so hard in the students in this area? Why is there such disrespect among these Fargoites? Ahhh what can one do but shake their heads and walk away…it is to bad, it really is.
Here I am open to sharing, giving one on one advice and direction without the intrusion of time and postal system. I am here ready to serve and yet few are willing to take advantage of this offer. Now I remember why I walked away before, in ten years nothing has changed, not a thing! Same players, same excuses just different faces and names…… Oh how I long for a community where we can actually work together, like this forum. Where we can have community meals and community work, where there is conversations on spiritual things going on at all hours day or night and the we would be self sustaining and off the gird. Where like minds would walk and share together. A community together when they wanted in common areas but with their own homes as well. This is what my hearts works for, what I try to build. A college even where one can learn and grow in spiritual pursuits. Yet Fargo is not it and still I am forced to stay here and I cry to the Goddess WHY???? What purpose can their be? No answer comes and still I am instructed to stay so I do. I keep trying to make changes, to offer services, to build the Emerald Door Light center with little results.
However on a good note the few who did attend class were wonderful with a lot of potential and great insights. I think these people will do well and they seemed to enjoy the class. Once I got started my nerves went out the door, the Goddess and God's Light filled me and I was off, saying and doing what needed to be done. The theory went well (even though I think the first class is the most boring section ever hee hee, but you have to have the historical foundations to begin with) The practical went much better then I could have hoped for with many having above average visualization abilities.
On a side note I wonder if Light Workers are awakening skills that are deep within the DNA like visualization techniques at this time in history. I also wonder if those drawn to the study of Magick or Wolfen Wicca are being called because of what is coming up on the world in general and are preparing their selves as Warriors of the Light drawing in all the information and skills they can. This is something I shall continue to think on and observe.
In any case the actual class was a rousing success and a few said they felt like they were coming home. Always a good thing to hear as it lets me know I am truly doing my job with great success.
Anyway I just want all my past and present students to know how much I miss and appreciate that you allowed me to teach you. Such experiences as those who didn't show last night reawaken in me how truly blessed I am to have found each and every one of you who trusted me and who allowed me to share with you those bits of direction and teaching I could. We are all in need of all the information we can glean right now for in the future it may very well be few and far between. Thank you my many student of the past for your passions, thank you for you insights, thank you for never giving up even when it was hard, thank you for growing into these amazing light filled people you are. Thank you for taking control of your lives and for weaving your own magick in this world, thank you for caring enough to take this sometimes very painful spiritual journey and
most of all truly thank you for letting me be a small part of it all with you. What an amazing life I live, the good and the bad. I am always in AWE of the splendor of the Lady and Lord and of how the grand plans of the universe unfolds. Last night was no exception and as this experience of teaching one on one begins anew I am also in awe that I was ever chosen to serve in this capacity. So I will serve as best I can with 4 or 400 students at a time. I will do so with a glad heart that they are there and they are wishing to have these most ancient mysteries unveiled and explained.
Blessings a renewed and reinvigorated
LWM
12:48 PM
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