Letting go is so hard...it hurts. God is holding me in his hand. He is molding me. When I bend and move with Him, He molds me into something beautiful. But, so often, I try to do my own thing and I become a lump of mess spinning in circles with no purpose or direction. Without him I am just a lump of clay on the spinning wheel of life. I am working out some things that have caused me to slip out of His hands. He has asked me to let go and trust Him. So I am...finally...but it's hard...it's so hard to let go of what you've held so dear. This has been the theme of my life for several months as I have tried to let go of some things...it is still my prayer. I struggle and my heart is breaking...but I know I can trust Him with this. I can trust Him with me...and with those that I love.

(I Can Trust You With This by Rebecca St. James)

Yes, I know that You have paved a path for me
Yes, I know that You see what I do and don't need
But when it comes to the deepest things
I have a hard time relinquishing control
Letting go

God, it hurts to give You what I must lay down
But when I let go, freedom's found
God, it hurts to give You what I've held so dear
Because of Your love it's clear
I can trust You with this
I can trust You with me
I can trust You

Lord, I know that You are worthy of my trust
For You have shown me time and time again
You're faithful and yet
I'm so scared of letting go of this
Afraid of what You might do with it
How could I forget who You are like this

Me forsaking
Heart is breaking
I let go of what I've held so tight
Freedom's mine now
For the taking
I move in faith, not by sight
Let Your will be done