I am at a complete loss.  Seriously.  How DO people know what they want in life and how to achieve it?  How do people have so much energy to get things done?  How come other people don't let things get to them?  How can I do that?!  Why am I the coward?  Why don't I know myself?  Why do I not go out and get things done?  Why do I make the decisions I do?  How can I organize my thoughts and form them into something I can understand?  Why am I so scared of looking stupid?  Why do I lack the confidence?

Is life always such a struggle?  Will I ever KNOW me?  Why do people like me?  Is it me they like or how I portray myself as this silly little goofy dork?  Does anyone see the depth of my very person?  Could they interpret it and fill me in?  What's the point of my being?

I'm almost 25.  People around me know their path, have worked hard for their goals, and are where I wish I were.  How come I don't even know where to start?  I'm a lil' jealous...and confused.

Is this what my life will always be like?  When I do push myself, I get knocked on my ass.  It's hard to be motivated.  What can motivate me?

How Kelsey describes her life right now:   ???