And even her voice annoys me now - and somehow now that detail seems to be angering you. And this ongoing fight between me and her continues. I thought you were my friend - and you understood how I felt about it since this started to begin. And that's why you used to defend me. Bc you started to notice things. I mean I don't expect you to be on my side. I mean she's your wife - but you understood my side and realized about most things I was right. 

And I was defending her brother bc of how she treats him. I mean god forbid if he gets sleep or anything - she wouldn't dare let him. But today you yelled at me. The first time you went againts my feelings. And I fell in defeat. The only point I was making was that she was always trying to be "queen bee." But she's not to me. She's the equivelent of me. She has no right to yell or scream at me. She has no right to tell me how to feel or think. I could care less if she's five years older than me. She's just as mature if not less than me. 

But I guess you've gotten sick of my "bitching". Maybe I just get so angry that I've gotten so used to letting go of my feelings. Maybe I should just shut up and let it go until I leave. Good idea maybe? I just have a small problem with authority - especially when I don't believe someone has any over me. 

But I can't yell back at you. Bc to me if there's any alpha here it would be you. You are the only opinion that I care about when it comes to living here. Or anything that happens around here.  I just can't wait until I leave this place. I mean this is all so ridiculous. And I know there will be a lot of rules to follow at this new place. But I'm sure it will be better than this. What do you think? Sort of - kind of - maybe?

Reading today's horiscope has just had me thinking. And I guess it all makes since to me.

Capricorn (December 22 - January 19)5/23/2009

You might feel as if your schedule is out of your control today as the Sun forms an annoying quincunx to demanding Pluto in your sign. The more you attempt to make things right, the worse they get. The smartest thing for you to do now is to simply let go. Keep in mind that this is not about defeat; rather, it's about conserving your energy to apply it where you can be more productive.

By Rick Levine, copyright 2008, Tarot.com